Saturday, January 9, 2010

It's Cold outside

Good Morning all,

Is it cold outside BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! Just came in from out doors trying to help a little with getting wood for the fire place. Although I guess I am not much help as I have to stop every so often to catch my breath, but if finally is done. Well I had a wonderful Christmas it was just me and my aunt and uncle. The rest of the family came down on new years week end and it was wonderful.
Last year my 2 cousins decided that we should make the presents for this year which at first I was like are they kidding.( I was not feeling up to that spent all winter in chemo and on the sofa BIG COUCH POTATOE, then spring came and I spent ALL my days in bed with a couple of trips to the hospital I only got up to go to radiation treatments then right home and to bed. I could not believe how much that will take every once of energy out of you. I went from 150 lbs. to 122 lbs. in what seemed like over night. Doctors kept wanting to put in a feeding tube and I kept refusing. Finally June came and I finished both treatments Praise GOD and am now working on getting back to normal and trying to get healthy.) Any who we had such a great time opening and making the presents this year, we decided to do it again for next year. I already know what I am doing for one of the girls and have started.

Had my doctors appointment this Wednesday and explained to him why I am not going to start chemo again. He was ok with it and will see me on a monthly basis and do my blood work. So for this week my white and red blood cell count was a little down but not much. So I must work on that. Other than that I am back crafting and swapping which I love to do. But am taking it easy not to bite off more than I can chew. I am spending the day at home and just going to enjoy the day and try to stay warm.

Friday, January 8, 2010

WOW almost 2 years since I have posted on here, time sure flies by. Well I never mentioned that when I was in PR. I had a tumor on my neck and since I was a cancer survivor I was pretty sure what it was, just had so much to deal with at the time just put it out of my mind.
Needless to say the past year has been filled with doctors, chemo, and radiation treatments. My tumor is gone but the throat cancer has moved too my lung, the ovarian cancer I thought I survived is in my sternum also located in between my lungs. I finished 40 rounds of radiation and chemo this past June. The chemo I had been doing for a year. Evidently the radiation killed the cancer in my left tonsil and limp nodes in my neck but not before it moved to my lung. (this explains why I have not posted nothing for such a long time. It takes everything out of you, I could write a book alone about the past year and a half).The doctor wants me to do more chemo but for the moment I have chosen not to since he told me there was basically nothing he could do for me just buy me time. So I have chosen an alternative treatment for the moment. The bible teaches us that by the crucifixion Jesus not only saved those who believes but also healed us of all diseases, So I stand on the word of God by His stripes I am healed. I am living one day at a time I am doing great and I feel great. I know God is with me and if it is for me to go home I know I will be forever healed there. But God is good and forever faithful and I will praise Him in this storm no matter where it leads me. Even though I am going thru this, I have been so blessed during this time with the people I have met and the new friends I have made.

Well just to catch up on other things I no longer have my message board or my Design team just could not cope with everything. Sometimes we have good intentions but just can not complete them. I just walked away from everything once I got back home and started dealing with all the changes and the illness. For any of you who have gone thru cancer more than once can understand. I just started back on doing scrapping and card making a few months ago. I do cards for my church but that could be changing here shortly as I may be changing churches. I still live with my Aunt and Uncle bless them both. My cat that was in PR waiting for his plane ride did make it home but he got very sick about 6 months ago and I had to put him down. Moo Moo and Honey are still with me Praise God, thank goodness for my fur babies. I am still married just with everything that has been going on the last thing I want to deal with is lawyers and a divorce. My husband has kept in touch with me and admitted to everything but that does not change anything. I am here and he is there and that is how it will stay. I am working on me getting healthy and my relationship with GOD. I have no desire or do I see myself starting or wanting to be in another relationship.
It's funny how your life can change in an instant, I can say I do miss my friends, the food, and the warm weather in PR. But I am home, I have peace, I have a loving caring family, good friends and a Father in heaven who loves me, what more could a girl ask for.
So this is where I am now in this thing we call life. May God Bless all of you and good night.