Saturday, May 24, 2008

Good Morning everyone,

Today I have a guy coming to look at my motor scooter and a lady to look at my car. It would be a blessing to get both of these sold today. If I can get them sold I'm half way home. I so need to get out of this atmosphere and back home.

I did nothing special yesterday around 9 pm. I went to Dennys and had a swiss mushroom burger and a strawberry shake for my birthday. Yes I celebrated my birthday alone which I have been doing for the past years. As I was eating my friend from work called and invited me out to eat after she got out of work at 11pm. But since I was already eating we decided to meet at Chili's today for lunch.
When I got back home I got on my message board and to my surprise one of the gals from my DT had posted a picture. She made me a birthday cake, I just sat there with my mouth open. I was just so humbled, how blessed I am to have such wonderful woman in my life. I will try to post a pic of the cake if I can get the link right.
Did not get to sleep till 5am. Don't know what all that was about just kept tossing and turning. Got up around 9 am. now I have to get ready so these people can come and hopefully buy my car and motor scooter.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Today is my birthday

I am 45 yrs. old today, Happy Birthday to me.

I have a lady comming to look at my car tomorrow I pray she buys my car. I need to sell it so I can send my other car home. I so want to be home now but there are things I must take care of before I can go.

As you know I am taking my 2 Cats with me but I have 4 more that are rescues. I keep thinking it will be very hard to place 3 of them since they are very timid and shy around others, they run the other way when even my husband comes into the room. I have been trying to place them but have had no luck as of yet. I refuse to put them in the animal shelter, just the thought of them being in that place and being terrified, and all alone just breaks my heart. And the fact they would be put down by a stranger and maybe even forceably I can't live that. And I can't take them with me there is no place to keep them. So I have come to the conclusion that I might just have to put them to sleep myself. This will be one of the hardest things I have ever done. But just the thought of something happening to them, or there last days at a shelter being one of terror and confusion is more thank I can take. I would rather they be put down in my loving arms than by a stranger and forceably. It's the only humane conclusion I have come up with since most people do not want to take the time to work with such shy and timid animals. Please pray for me that God gives me a spirit of peace about this. It's like I am ripping out my own heart. I know they are just animals to some but they are family to me. I hope I have the strength and courage to do this.
The other cat will be more easy to place as she is a very loving and affectionate. I just need to find her a home.

I wish this was all over and I was home, I know God never gives us more than we can bear. I am just wondering how much more can I bear. I wish I had some family here to help me but there is no one. I am doing this all on my own, my husband is not lifting one finger to help me except for to pay for my personal belongings to be shipped home and if I am lucky the plane tickets for me and my cats. I know things will be better once I get home and am surrounded with loving family.
It's just that today is not one of my happier birthdays, I need to put my big girl pants on and move forward. This is not the end of the world just moving to a new chapter of my life.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Hi Everyone and welcome to my blog.
This is a new blog for me as I am starting on a new adventure in my life. I will turn 45 tomorrow and in just a few short weeks I will be starting a new life.
I have lived in "La Isla del Encanto" Puerto Rico for over 20 yrs. in just a few weeks I will be moving back to Michigan with just my 2 cats, Moo Moo who is 9 yrs. old and Honey who is 5 yrs. old.
After 12 yrs. of marriage I have come to find that the man I have been married to has been living a double life. He has a five year old son with another woman and my status as beloved wife has changed to just a green card ticket, my husband is from China. I could sit here and write a book on all that I have been thru with this man, good and bad. But I need to focus on the positive and get home.
I am very excited about getting home, being with family and surrounding myself with positive energy and love. I am also very excited to find a good church home. Please don't get me wrong I am very saddened by everything that has gone on between me and this man I thought was my husband. But things have not been right betweens us for years, and now I know the reason why.
So I am chalking this up to a bad chapter in the book of my life and moving on to better things.

I also have a Scrapbooking message board Angels Wings and Crafty Things. We have a wonderful group of ladies on there. So if your looking for a place to share your faith, your love of paper crafting and creating new friendships come on over and check us out.