Friday, June 6, 2008

Just a little change of plans

I bought my tickets yesterday, but instead of the 23rd. I will be traveling on the 19th. Almost had a ticket for the 13th but just as my friend was ready to click payment the ticket went up $50. So I got a ticket for the 19th at $288.80.
So it is 13 days and counting.

Yesterday as I was at my friends house I was thinking even though I want to get home, the actual saying good by to this man I have called husband for the last 12 yrs. is not going to be easy. There is that part that still cares about him even though he has done what he has done. It will be harder than what I think to say good bye to the place I have lived for over the past 20 yrs. I know everything will be OK once I get home, I just take one day at a time and I will be find. There is so much to look forward to, but by the same token there is so much to say goodbye to. I wish they made don't cry pills. But then again maybe crying is a good thing to help me relieve the stress.

On a brighter note me and my friend Evelyn are suppose to go and see the new Indiana Jones flick today. I can't wait it has been over a year since I last went to the cine. I sure will miss going out with my friend Evelyn. After the flick it is home and get busy I have to make the most of my time.
I did find a bank that will cash the incentive checks from the gov. and only charge $5. I need to get that done ASAP since his name is also on the check. I am putting everything in postal money orders. I don't want to be traveling with to much cash on me.
So gotta go and get things done

Thursday, June 5, 2008


Well I was going to buy my plane ticket yesterday but they wanted over $400 for a one way. So after lots of checking and re checking, I found a ticket for $248.00 arriving at night, not in my home town and it's on the 18th. Five days earlier than I was planning. SO that news is not so good but, the good news is I can fly my 2 cats together in the same carrier which means only $150.00 for them both what a relief, now I just have top find the right size carrier. So instead of 18 days and counting it's 13 days and counting.
Now I just need to find homes for my 2 other cats and sell what ever I can.
Today I plan on staying home (except for buying my ticket) and get everything done and get this sale started.
So I am going to get and get busy.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Day 19 and counting

I am sitting here and writing this and it just hit me the end of my 12 yr. marriage and my move home is becoming a reality. The man I have done my best for and have been thru hell and back for does not love me and only is with me to change his status. The marriage I thought would last forever was just a figment of my imagination.
I really am moving home, Home and Family how wonderful these words sound in my ears. How blessed I am to have a Uncle and Aunt that are taking me and my 2 cats into there home. To think I will be spending turkey day and christmas with family, not alone waiting for him to get home. There will be birthday parties, anniversaries, BBQ's, camping, family vacations. So I need to wipe these tears away and move on to more happy thoughts.

As you know I sold my car YAHOO!!!!!!!. Today I will sending out the money to pay for the shipping of my other car and buying my ticket, I have set a date for June 23. The prices just keep going up it will be close to $500 for me, Moo Moo, and Honey to fly home. I have to check one of them as baggage as you are not allowed two animals per person. I have been assured by quite a few people if they are in good health they should be safe. This makes me feel a little better but, I still don't like the idea of my kitty traveling as baggage. BUT the good Lord has watched over me so far and I trust in Him for my Moo Moo's well being during this trip.

Monday I spent 4 hrs. and $170.00 at the vets office getting vacinations and check ups. My vet was on vacation and there was a substitute. He was slow but very attentive and caring with my two furbabies. My vet is a cat lover, I just hope I can find someone as good as him when I get back home. I will deffinately miss him.

Tuesday woke up to find my cell had been turned off, husband did not pay the bill so we had to go down to the mall and pay it. Now IF he pays for next month it will be $25 more for the reconnection fee. If he wants to keep in contact with me he needs to pay it. My aunt has offered to get me a cell with there family plan he will not have this number. I also plan on getting a po box so he can keep in contact with me there, if he so chooses.
Found a home for another one of my cats now I only have 2 that need a home. I pray that this will happen before I leave. Sold some of my scrapbook stuff, had some people come to my house to see the stuff I am selling. One guy brought about 10 people with him. I was freaking out with all those people in my house, and then they bought nothing I guess they figured I was giving it away.

So today I will be working on moving stuff outside to the garage for the sale that way no one needs to be in my house. So I should be all done with my stuff by the 23 and then I will be on my way. The count down is on.

Sunday, June 1, 2008


Well last night was not a good night for me. I have been holding in all this frustration and anger I have been feeling since April. I just want to go home peacefully, but last night I was just fed up. His car is in my name now and he does not know how to drive a standard, so I have been taking him back and forth to work. Picked him up last night and went to the gas station (it was pay day for him) well he did not want to put gas in the car. I just told him if you want to go to work pump gas, he put in $20. I told him if he did not like it my way he needs to have his girlfriend take him to work and go to the immigration with him, and help him find a transmission for his car. I also told him I needed $500 for the airplane ticket. His reaction was but you have not sold your car yet. Never say stuff like that to a scorned woman.

So we have this flea market every Sunday about 10 min. down my street. My car has no tags so I could not drive it there because of police. I have been taken pics of my stuff for sale to post on line. So I got up at 7:30 am and got me a VERY LARGE piece of paper and glued my pics to it with the list of other stuff I have for sale. Got in my car went to Micky D's got me a breakfast went and parked my car and taped the paper to the back of my SUV and sat there and eat my breakfast. No one was coming around " I was a little ways away from the main part of the market". So I moved my car down to where everyone else was selling there cars and parked my car in the parking for $2.
I felt so stupid and embarrassed but I got out of my car with my piece of paper and stood in front of the parking lot with my HUGE piece of paper. I was amazed at how many people started to ask me about my car and everything else I had on there. "I was still feeling very scared and stupid but a girl is gotta do what a girl is gotta do". I was not there even an hour and a guy came and made me an offer and I said those magic words SOLD. I took less than what I wanted but my Aunt gave me a good talking to yesterday and told me to use the potty or get off the pot. So I used the potty.
So if nothing else I have the money to get me, my 2 cats, and my SUV home. Now DH knows I mean business. So he NOW has to come up with $500 for my plane ticket home. So really I can leave at any time I choose now. I am going to sell what ever I can and buy my ticket.
I will be home by the end of the month if not before.

PS..... Last thursday I walked around my car 7 times praying and asking the Lord to help me sell my car, since I seemed not to be getting any serious buyers.
Then I put my car out in front of where I live and on the second day I had a young man offer me $3000, but I waited for today to see if I could get more at the Flea market. Needless to say I sold my car and GOD ANSWERS PRAYER AND IS GOOD ALL THE TIME. Even though I am going thru a very rough time I am blessed and I am loved. My Father is taking care of me every step of the way.
Thank you Father for watching over me, and being there even when my faith is VERY weak as it was yesterday forgive me. Glory and praise to your name thankyou for selling my car.