Friday, January 8, 2010

WOW almost 2 years since I have posted on here, time sure flies by. Well I never mentioned that when I was in PR. I had a tumor on my neck and since I was a cancer survivor I was pretty sure what it was, just had so much to deal with at the time just put it out of my mind.
Needless to say the past year has been filled with doctors, chemo, and radiation treatments. My tumor is gone but the throat cancer has moved too my lung, the ovarian cancer I thought I survived is in my sternum also located in between my lungs. I finished 40 rounds of radiation and chemo this past June. The chemo I had been doing for a year. Evidently the radiation killed the cancer in my left tonsil and limp nodes in my neck but not before it moved to my lung. (this explains why I have not posted nothing for such a long time. It takes everything out of you, I could write a book alone about the past year and a half).The doctor wants me to do more chemo but for the moment I have chosen not to since he told me there was basically nothing he could do for me just buy me time. So I have chosen an alternative treatment for the moment. The bible teaches us that by the crucifixion Jesus not only saved those who believes but also healed us of all diseases, So I stand on the word of God by His stripes I am healed. I am living one day at a time I am doing great and I feel great. I know God is with me and if it is for me to go home I know I will be forever healed there. But God is good and forever faithful and I will praise Him in this storm no matter where it leads me. Even though I am going thru this, I have been so blessed during this time with the people I have met and the new friends I have made.

Well just to catch up on other things I no longer have my message board or my Design team just could not cope with everything. Sometimes we have good intentions but just can not complete them. I just walked away from everything once I got back home and started dealing with all the changes and the illness. For any of you who have gone thru cancer more than once can understand. I just started back on doing scrapping and card making a few months ago. I do cards for my church but that could be changing here shortly as I may be changing churches. I still live with my Aunt and Uncle bless them both. My cat that was in PR waiting for his plane ride did make it home but he got very sick about 6 months ago and I had to put him down. Moo Moo and Honey are still with me Praise God, thank goodness for my fur babies. I am still married just with everything that has been going on the last thing I want to deal with is lawyers and a divorce. My husband has kept in touch with me and admitted to everything but that does not change anything. I am here and he is there and that is how it will stay. I am working on me getting healthy and my relationship with GOD. I have no desire or do I see myself starting or wanting to be in another relationship.
It's funny how your life can change in an instant, I can say I do miss my friends, the food, and the warm weather in PR. But I am home, I have peace, I have a loving caring family, good friends and a Father in heaven who loves me, what more could a girl ask for.
So this is where I am now in this thing we call life. May God Bless all of you and good night.

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